This has been a difficult post for me to write, and one I have written in my head over and over and not quite been able to piece together the words quite in the right way. I’ve given up now with trying to be coy about my words and I’e going to dive straight in.
I have been nominated for “Best New Blog” at the British Plus Size Awards which is a MASSIVE honor to me and honestly quite overwhelming. I’ve not had a particularly nice life due to being plus size and so now to have my size flipped into something so positive and then being recognized even further with people actually taking their time out to go nominate me and put me up for an award – it feels amazing.
However, what doesn’t feel amazing is having to defend myself, or read blog posts and comments about how I don’t deserve to be nominated because I’ve been blogging longer than some others and have more followers. I don’t think that a length of time if a fair representation though, as for a long long time my blog was unknown and it wasn’t until I finished my job last August that I really got the ball rolling with it and kept consistent. Attending Plus North was my first real interaction with companies and brands and I got a few opportunities off the back of that, but most of them came from me constantly emailing and tweeting asking to be put onto blogger lists. My biggest break came from being one of the bloggers featured in “Plus Size Wars” where I was even named as a “New Blogger” by Channel 4 and was separate from the other most established bloggers.
Being a Northern blogger I’ve always been more segregated from other bloggers as I’ve not had as many opportunities to get my blog out there at events. It seems so many launches and press days and blogger events all happen in London which sucks when you’re 250 miles away! I know bloggers who have been to 2 events in a day because they have the privilege of living in London. I try to travel as much as possible, but with both a painful physical and mental conditions I find it hard to get to London. Plus – it’s expensive, and quite often too last minute to arrange.
I’m sorry for sounding very victim-like and woe is me, however I really wanted to get things off my chest about how I feel. I’m currently 20 weeks pregnant and not feeling so glam as of late and so the thought of wearing a beautiful dress and running off for an evening surrounded by other wonderful rad fatties is getting me through a few poorly days I’ve been having. It almost seems like a light at the end of the tunnel and something to look forwards to for me! The awards are actually 19 days after my due date so it will be interesting to get away from baby for an evening and be somebody else apart from somebody’s mummy.
It’s not all doom and gloom. I feel genuinely ecstatic over just being recognized by other people who so kindly wanted to put me forwards for the award in the first place. Thank you so much for thinking of me and for enjoying what I write/put out into the world. All the kind words I get on a daily basis, the emails and comments of support and admiration genuinely keep me going and I’m so lucky to have such friends/followers. Blogs would be nothing without people reading them and promoting them and giving feedback so thank you again for being a part of my continuing journey – as much as It’s twisting and turning. I started two years ago this month, a girl with not much self confidence and a need to pull herself out of wearing the same boring and uninspiring clothes every day to somebody who has grown into a strong, independent woman who is ready to bring another life into the world and teach that person that their body is perfect and beautiful in every way.
I’ve been told to withdraw from the awards as some people who aren’t even nominated or in my category think that it’s unfair that I’m nominated, however after discussing it with other people in my category who are happy for me to continue on, I’m going to stay put and go ahead and enjoy the exciting lead up and the search for a beautiful dress!
If you do back my blog and would like to vote for me, you can do so by following this link and scrolling down to “Best New Blog” clicking Fabulously Fat Fashion and then vote! Or, feel free to vote for another! There’s some really excellent emerging bloggers nominated and anybody would be a deserving winner.
Thanks for your endless support.